It has been said every journey begins with the first step. When I was younger, traveling with my family, I would always ask "Are we there yet?" My question would usually be meet with silence, an irritated "no", or a sarcastic "do you have something better to do?" I responded with a frustrated sigh and would promptly go to sleep.
The metaphor of sleeping has profound significance for me. I like sleeping when it is pleasant, restful, adventurous, or exotic. However, when it is full with fears, worries, doubts, and uncertainties my sweet dreams become living nightmares that are hard to wake up from.
I am approaching a season in my life where I am waking up. When I was younger I choose to stay sleep to deal with the boredom, heartache, grief, anxiety and frustration of the journey. Now that I am nearing a watershed moment in my life I'm realizing that life to meant to be lived fully awake. For me this means accepting the joy and the pain, the losses and the gains, the good times and the bad and still continue on the journey.
A colleague helped me appreciate that to move forward in my life I need to reclaim my past,. the moments when I was sleep, consciously or unconsciously. It is the reclamation and reconciliation of my past that grounds me in the present moment, creating opportunities for the future.
When I started training in earnest for my new and emerging passion, becoming a triathlete, I realized I had a long way to go. I would often ask myself, "am I there yet". In fact, I ask myself this question every time I reach the half way point of the swim, bike, or run. Its at that point that I remind myself: It's all about the journey....stay connected....keeping feeling your way through....you will get there...
Whoever took the time to read this: Peace & Blessings on Your Journey
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