I recently had a conversation with someone about the difference between a process and a journey. As I review the journey of my life I am coming the awareness that its all about finding and nurturing my authentic voice or Trusage. This is my deep intuition, my heart's core, the ground of my being, the source of my soul. My journey was started out of pain, trauma, and loss. But rather then feel deeply into my fears, anger, and sadness I hid behind socialized expectations that have been more of a hindrance than a help.
My wife sent me a book that arrested my attention it is entitled; The Voice: Overcome Negative Self-Talk and Discover Your inner Wisdom written by Brian Alman and Stephen Montgomery. It's about the mind-body-spirit connection of transforming unbearable pain into livable disappointment. The authors cite examples of how physical pain can be healed from the inside out.
For the past several months I have been on a journey of training for triathlons and races. As I write this entry, I am aware of moderate pain coursing through my body as a result of a grueling workout, thanks to my running Angel. While running at 7.5 mph at an incline of 6 on route to turning "purple" she kept saying breathe engage your core. What a powerful metaphor for life! When pain is kicking your butt, breathe and engage your core!! Let me, explain.
The "negative" stress of life is caused from experiences in the past that project fear into the future robbing a person of the Power of Now. Repressed emotions like fear, sadness, anger, guilt, shame, anxiety, etc. are carried and buried in the body. Have you noticed on the Biggest Loser how a lot of weight issues are directly tied to some emotional, psychological pain of the past? I am coming to understand that physical pain or maladaptive behavior is a manifestation of deeper emotional or spiritual pain. "First things happen on the inside, and then they happen on the outside".
During my training as a CPE student I was bragging one day to my Supervisor about all the "stuff" I was doing in my life. After I finished she looked me in the eye and said: "I hear what you are saying about your success but, I noticed you gained a significant amount of weight, how is the landscape of your soul?" Her question stopped me in my tracks and forced me to examine my "innerscape".
The inner journey and writing this blog is helping me re-frame and focus transforming the "process" of weight loss and triathlon training into the journey of weight loss and triathlon training.
Heartfelt thanks to you for reading and sharing this experience with me.
Peace & Blessings on Your Journey
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