So, the Chicago Triathlon International distance (1 mile swim, 24 mile bike, 6.2 mile run) is coming up in less than three days. In earlier posts I raised the question why I would do this kind of endurance event at my age and size? What point I'm I trying to prove? To whom am I trying to prove that point? Why am I trying to prove a point at all?
I am coming to the awareness that I struggle with the idea of getting a DNF (Did Not Finish) and pushing through until the end. I am becoming increasingly aware that the goal is to experience my subjective self as I swim, bike, and run. The risk of injury is always lurking in the shadows however, finding the balance between pushing my body and knowing when to stop is the awareness of internal and external connection as I leap into the halo of my core and experience awakened presence.
I see myself reaching and pulling through the water, breathing deeply and fully, alternating between relaxed and hard strokes, conserving and expending energy with each reach and pull. Coming out of the water I see myself warmed up and ready to ride. As I mount the bike I feel the activation of my quadriceps and hamstrings (one day I'll use clips to get an efficient pedal stroke.) As I dismount from the bike I feel the heavyness of my legs as I shift my weight for the walk/run.
As I stay in touch with Me, I will finish strong and complete. I am grateful for family and friends who are with me on the journey. A week after the race I will celebrate the completion of one chapter in my life and the dawn of another.
For those who have read this blog may you experience the center of your soul.
Peace & Blessings On Your Journey
